The Giving Over

Ya know in all my years of living, I’ve never really thought much about how when you begin a relationship you are giving yourself to another person. I’ve always just focused on my want and longing for another person, but not really on the giving over of everything that I am (including the things I don’t want to share).

Lately it has been popping up all around me that I need to start being vulnerable, accept who I am, and be confident in the story that the Lord has given me. 

I’ve heard the phrase “we are not made to live in isolation, we were made to live in community” so many times in the past few years. It didn’t really hit me until I got back from spending 3 months in Europe becoming family with my classmates. They taught me how to share life and really invest in each other’s burdens. 

These days I’m learning what it’s like to let my true self show. I’m learning that I don’t have to hide my past, the things I am embarrassed about, or the things I am afraid of sharing. 

I’m learning that there is beauty in vulnerability. 

As I hope and wait for the person I so want to be vulnerable with, I am realizing that I haven’t even been real with God. Before I can be completely myself and vulnerable with the love of my life, I think it’s important for me to let down my walls with my soul’s true Lover and Maker. 

So as I stop trying to let God in and start resting in the presence of the Lord, I am learning that these walls were not meant to exist. 

We were meant to let go and give over our complete selves. The shameful things, the embarrassing things, the things that society won’t accept us for, and even the things we are afraid to tell our family. 

This giving over of our complete, imperfect selves will ultimately lead to freedom and peace that our Father so wants us to have.