God is giving me an opportunity. It wasn’t until right now that I realized it, but He is waiting for me to lean into him. He is offering a sweet invitation to me to rest in Him.
Coming back from study abroad, I was not expecting such a “culture shock”. It has been a hard week of realizing that I am “back to real life”, but I know the past three months were, in fact, real life. They were confusing, beautiful, hard, incredible and looking back it all feels like a dream. I’ve realized that I cannot go back, but I must lean in to gratitude and see the blessings that have been surrounding me.
After returning home to Ohio, I have been so stressed and conflicted over a big decision that I need to make. I’ve been crying over this decision, missing Vienna so deeply, and the remains of my childhood life all crashing in on me at once. I have not been turning to God, even when I know I should. I know he is waiting for me to lean in to him because he already knows what my future is. He knows the results of my decision before I even make it. He knows I miss Vienna and he knows whether I will be going back or not. He knows my childhood and knows what my family needs.
I feel like God is standing over me saying, “Lana, I am just waiting for you to lean in to me.”
“For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” Colossians 1:16-17
I discovered this verse while I was reading an article the other day and it just hit me. As much as I fail at going to God when I am stressed, struggling, or making a decision, it doesn’t matter. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. No matter what happens he already knows… He is just waiting for us to lean in and join him in the journey.
How have you been leaning into Him lately?