Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I did this or that.. What if I traveled to see my friends this summer? What if I chose the coconut paleta over the coffee flavored one? What if I wasn’t afraid to talk to someone new today? But there are two main options that I struggle over about what to do with my life..
The first is to finish college, find an awesome internship somewhere in a cool city, hopefully get a boyfriend, and get a cute little apartment and decorate it. All of these things would be so nice! I would go to all the cool coffee shops and cafes. Hopefully be apart of an awesome church and maybe even help lead a youth group someday?
But then something else tugs on my heart…
The second is to forget EVERYTHING I just said and to travel the world and be a missionary. Who needs a cute little apartment, when some people don’t even have a home? Who needs the comfort of a shower everyday, when some little kids don’t even have clean water to drink? Who needs a job or internship, when there are people around the world that just need to be shown love?
I know that God is placing something on my heart. I’m just not sure yet. I also know that achieving my dream job, getting all of the newest material items, and finally finding a boyfriend that i’ve wanted for so long is not going to make me feel fulfilled or content.
The only thing that is going to fulfill me is My Creator and Savior.
I may not know what I am doing this summer, or next, or even what I am doing after college. But I can be sure that God will lead me where he wants me to go.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11